I LOST MY BLOCK!!! I’ve looked everywhere!!!! #*&^$@)(#(*&%^(_@()*@!(!(!!!!!
–What am I doing now? Trying to sell my current collection. Designing my next collection. Making a list of all the mistakes I made my first season. Cursing 20/20 hindsight. Trying to not let my self-flagellation get too severe.
One of friends once said, “Wouldn’t it be nice if we believed the things our friends said to us?” You know, when they tell you you’re awesome, that everything will work out, you look like you lost weight, it’s really not that big of a deal.
On the other hand, the husband once told me about this essay he read once, about depression actually being psychologically realistic, while optimism was the true mental delusion.
–I’ve received a little bit of positive response from my collection. It’s encouraging, as the response is mainly from people whose opinions I respect. I tend to need an ego boost when starting a new collection.
–Trying to socialize a little, take a little breather. Went to a wedding last Saturday, going camping for 1 night this weekend.
–On a personal note, my father found some long lost relatives in Korea. They are my mom’s side of the family; my father had lost contact with them when my mother passed away. I haven’t seen them since I left Korea 24 years ago. I’m going to Korea to see them! I don’t know when, but hopefully before my grandmother passes away (she’s in her 80s). Yeehaw! The first time I called my aunt, she freaked out because apparently my phone voice is just like my mom’s.
–Want some instant gratification? Grow a mint plant! My boss gave a cutting of wild mint and it took a little bit to take root and now it grows and grows so fast and it smells amazing. I also got a chocolate mint cutting from a friend and she’s been growing pretty fast too. You can really smell the chocolate with the mint. I just set them by a north-facing window and water them once a week. It’s really rewarding to see new sprouts and it’s fun that they grow so fast, since building a collection is such a slow process. (I also have a teeny weeny grafted cactus that grows very slowly but that’s good because she’s cute small.)
Not to say I’m giving up fashion to be a botanist or a gardener anytime soon. Apparently I was born with fashion in my blood. My aunt has had the same clothing store for 30 years, and when I was a tot in Korea, I’d go visit her store and pretend I was a customer, picking out stuff and asking her how much it was and then I’d pretend I was a stylist, telling the actual customers that something wouldn’t look good on them. (I left Korea when I was 4, so I don’t think I really offended anyone…)
How are you?